I’m going to sign up for Weight Watchers Sunday night and start living a healthier life on Monday. I just called up UNO’s recreational department, and I can join the gym for free. I just need to show my school ID.
I want to drop a few pants sizes and be where I was in high school. I was really healthy back then. Being involved in theatre, I would do plenty of movement and yoga. I’d go to the gym multiple times a week and eat healthy, well proportioned meals.
I realize that I will never be a skinny minny, and that’s definitely something I came to terms with a long time ago. But I want to feel healthier and comfortable in my own skin. When I look in the mirror, I am usually satisfied with what I see, but it’s not the same when I see pictures of myself. I wonder if that is how people really see me. Eating whatever you want is liberating and delicious, and college has definitely induced stress eating along with the freedom of eating without my mom constantly asking, “Should you really eat that?” I guess I kind of rebelled. Well that’s over now. I’m ready to get back on the right track and do myself (and my body) a favor. Maybe this change will help all these mood swings I’ve been suffering from, too.
I am going to look fucking fabulous for my graduation next spring.
Wish me luck, y’all.